Upheaval

So I haven't been writing about this, but Kyle and I have been debating the merits of my returning to finish college in Houston. It's been really hard, since he would stay here in LA, and I would visit him on breaks - which, as anyone who's been to school at all knows, are always too short.

We decided that I'll return to college in Houston for Summer Semester I (which starts on May 30th) through the Fall semester of 2008 (which ends in January). That's all the classes I'm registered for anyway, and I think 8 months will be a good sample of time to determine if it's working out (being away from Kyle and returning to the loathed Long Distance Relationship, living with my parents, being back in Houston). If it doesn't, I'll come back to LA, take out a student loan, and graduate from someplace here (probably USC).
We came to this conclusion based on many factors, such as:
1. Kyle has to focus on Improv these days and I'm needy to the point that, while I know this is important to him and his future, I will try to suck up any time he has that isn't spent in work proper.
2. I'm going fucking bonkers here not being in school and watching as everyone I know graduates, and feeling less-than because I don't have a degree. For clarification, nobody except my direct family has tried to make me feel bad for not being in school, but a. I would be able to get TONS more work this way, and
b. I would finally be able to move on with my life and have some self-esteem for once.

So, I'm going back to school. Again. For now.

I'm really depressed about leaving Kyle here (and we all had a good sob over having to move my shit out and having to look for another apartment for him, seeing as how we both love the layout and location of this one so much), but sort of optimistic about school life. I miss the papers and the pens, and moving back home means...a CAR! I would have a CAR!

Clearly, I've got mixed emotions about all this. But it is for the best.

PS. Words of support would be appreciated/are severely needed.