Saturday, December 6, 2008

Four Years

Yesterday, Kyle and I "celebrated" our four-year anniversary. I put celebrated in scare quotes like that because we're on opposite coasts and that's pretty depressing. FOUR YEARS, though. I know I say this every year, but I can't fucking believe that.

Last night I went out to stave off depression and a friend and I talked about her grandmother. Her husband passed away earlier this year, so since then Grandma has been living alone in Sugarland (for those of you who are not familiar, Sugarland is really far away from Houston proper, so it's a pain in the ass for someone who lives in the city to get out there on short notice). It's been very emotionally straining for everyone in the family because she's been really lonely all the way out there. We talked about the fact that she probably felt really lost because it's a very comforting feeling to know that somewhere out there, you can depend on one person to be there for you. For her whole adult life, my friend's grandmother could depend on her husband, and now he was gone.

I know that feeling. The first part, anyway. I know, almost on a cellular level, that Kyle will be on my side, no matter what the situation. It's empowering (in a way) to be supported in literally every thing you do, without even really needing to ask. It gives me license to be who I want to be. I think now we're doing pretty well, but I also know that someday I'll look back on this and revel at how underdeveloped we are as a couple. I can't wait to be in a place where our connection now could be deemed basic, but until then, I just have to sit back and try to believe I could be so lucky.

Happy Anniversary, baby. Here's to four(ty) more.

7 comments:

Rolling Meme said...

Blah blah blah, love is a many splendored thing, blah blah blah. Unconditional love, blah blah blah, isn't it nice to love and be loved in return, blah blah blah.

Mush, mush, mush, mushy mush mush.

Love, blah blah, love love love, blah.

(Happy Anniversary, you two! You know I kid because I love!)

Priya said...

Yeah, I know I'm a fruitcake. I LOVE YOU TOO JOHN!!!!!!!!!!

L said...

Why do you want it to end 40 years from now?

L said...

Robert's such a toady.

Priya said...

HEY. I'm not sure what a "toady" is but I don't think I like your tone!

Timby said...

Hah! you stole my joke!

And Lauren, I don't appreciate you tone either...?

Priya said...

Robert! I didn't steal your joke. It was a callback since I told Kyle about it when you sent me that text: he knew what I was referencing when I wrote that. JUST SO EVERYONE'S CLEAR.